Theres a lot of other stuff i wish i could be writing about right now but i should probably pray and think about them before i write them all out. I am really thankful for friends though. Girl friends especially. I look back at myself even just a couple years ago and i used to always say how i would rather be friends with a guy rather than a girl. Of course I have my reasons for thinking the way I did back then but now i look back at myself and feel so stupid. Right now I am surrounded by girl friends that i can lean on and trust. Not just with whats going on in my life but also how is God working in our lives. and we share so openly. Its so strange... why did I ever want to miss out on this kind of fellowship. I feel so blessed, like incredibly undeservingly blessed... i love how we can sit there and talk for literally hours and discuss anything from God to boys to family to pressures in our lives. whatever. it just really amazes me and opens my eyes to so many more things.
You know i used to think that I had stayed the same. I could not tell a difference in me from my highschool years to my college years to my college plus years... haha but maybe it was because i didnt look closely enough. or didn't evaluate the things that I should have. But there is no way that I havent changed. Main difference is that I think differently, i need to work heavily more on my actions (even though both still needs work). But then I look ahead and see how much more growing and maturing I have to do and it kind of excites me. How much more will He reveal to me. What other troubles and blessings is He going to send me through. There are so many things that I need to work on. For me, along with growth comes a certain wanting for something to stay the same. I need to pray harder and discipline myself (steady planned reading of the word). LETS GO!
