so ive only been at home for the last 3 days. Currently I am "grounded". Feeling slightly embarrassed that i am 23 and being grounded but i am not fighting my punishment because i know that i deserved it. So i am stripped of my car and my outside time. My parents aren't big on disciplining me now a days and even this i consider to be very light compared to the old days but ive been really taking this time to reflect on life and what i am doing with it. My parents aren't mad... i mean they were... hence the punishment, but i feel like we are taking this time to really talk about things and i think they find it strange that i am not threating to run away from home... and that i acknowledged my mistake. I think they got awkward when i was all sorry and depressed instead of angry and rebellious, which is why most of the yelling was skipped. Which makes me think... was I really that bad before? yes. i probably was. I am in desperate need of prayer. I feel like prayer is not as present in my life as it should be. Instead of lazing around the house i want to try to pray. Kinda tried that today and it kind of worked. I have so many things to pray for and need to work on verbally thanking Him instead of assuming that He knows which is a bad habit that i have carried with me. BTW i only write blog posts right before i go to sleep and the reason i usually right them is because i am feeling "thoughtful" which is why all my blog entries are a bit similar to each other. I love you for real. Ask me for a hug.
Prayer Requests (for those you graciously are willing to pray for me):
-"Situation" that I am dealing with... kind of hard to say but maybe when it is over. i know, its complicated... i apologize
-Perseverance in life in general
-To be a better example for all my sisters
-Finding my self-confidence in God and not worldly things
-My dry skin.. my face has been really dry and irritated.. it makes me sad.
-Holding my tongue and only speaking when I should and making sure it is out of love.
