1. Let's have a baby... HAHAHAHA jk... ok for real
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1. i love you. not the empty words that i always say to you but the way that you meant it to be. With all that I am and for the rest of my life. i will not falter and i will not move. i will live for you alone. if only these words could be 100% real.
2. Thank you for accepting me as i am and for just being there. I know that i dont show it as much as i should and that i go through phases but its because you are there that i am so comfortable being me to you. i know i disappoint you a lot and i'm am sorry. I hope that we can love each other more and pray for each other more.
3. I dont regret you. i know it doesnt make sense but i dont. you will read this and think other wise but we went through a lot together and i learned what i know now from going through it with you. Things are still gray and kept private but i finally think im starting to grow out instead of hiding in. thank you. i will pray for you if i remember, which im sure i will occasionally, for real this time. i hope these words can be read as genuine.
4. YAY! graduation!! ...T-T
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maybe it was to serious or cheesy but these are not technically things that i dont say already but more of things that i dont say properly or really want it to be genuine. whatevs... i feel like working out is making me feel sick but healthy at the same time. i need to buy shoes... like tennis shoes. i hate cutting my nails but i hate having long nails too... although i do feel as if they make my fingers look more thinner. learning to love a person is really hard... especially when they annoy the crap out of you. GAH! must not think like this. im waiting for something to happen.. cant say what, but it could determine my future in a totally different way. kinda scared. pray for me. are you guys praying for me?! am i worthy of your prayers... i must work on obedience. i should make more serious entries. i sound like im in highschool. but i like writing without any thought process or organization. i write organized and about how i critically think all week and i want a break from the normal.
scatter scatter scatter.
yes God, i would like one order of a mentor please. thank you!...just kidding :(
i like your bloggy.
ReplyDeleteYESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS OHMYGOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. hahahaha it's so good :). i made my non-korean friends watched and one of them watched 10 episodes in one day. HAHAHAHAHA... im ruining their lives... x_x;;
and i'm watching the jgs drama... it's okay. it's kind of odd... LOL. but i am staying loyal to JGS... i dont like how he looks in it though... like a guhjee -_______-;;